have left my blog dead for a periodof time.
no excuse except this;
LAZINESS.
ok.
life's been so-so now.
ironed out some problems,
new ones came out.
projects, projects, projects.
that all we can talk about lately.
2/3 of the presentations are done,
thank god.
last presentation tomorrow
later today.
FINAL OP
LSM and LCOMM combined.
the first of our barrage of presentations was OB
now, that was a satisfying presentation.
best one so far.
KUDOS TO THE FOLLOWING
SIDI
[fearful leader and Oscar Awardee!]
DERENCE
[Oscar Award Winner; Best Actor!]
BEN
[Oscar Award Winner; Best VIDEO TAKING AND EDITING]
SHAMEENAH
[Best Actress!]
only one thing to say.
DAMN SONG!
okay, following that was macro.
a bit screwed, but we managed to pull it off.
barely, may i add
a huge sigh of relief escaped me as we stepped out the room.
seriously, i didn't really know half of what i was talking about.
had a crisis the morning before,
but all was resolved.
later today is OP
and this is seriously
COCKED UP.
SCREWED UP.
FCUKED UP.
okay. i'm praying hard,
hoping it will turn out okay,
like OB and Macro.
we didn't really rehearse before hand for OB.
only got in a few half-hearted trys.
and maybe one or two actuals.
we didn't even rehearse before hand for Macro.
and we managed on fine,
if i do say so myself.
THE SHOW MUST GO ON.
i tell myself.
or in famous last words,
"even if your underware drop up there [on stage],
you also cannot let them [audience] know."
funny how the groups you have the most confidence in can screw up the most.
and the opposite happens for the group you feel like will fail.
i have to admit, it's seriously true in my case.
in no way are the below words intended to to hurt or defame anyone.
any hurt or defamation meant was purely accidental
i had thought from the start that my OB group was destined for failure
and that my Macro group would flourish.
in the end, it turned out that my OB group had the most satisfying results.
although several members
*ahembenahemderenceahem*
do not have a reputation for doing their work,
they submitted beautiful,
although late,
work.
i didn't hesitate to put a six on their PAF.
it was my macro group that made me feel disappointed.
shall not elaborate too much.
all in all, the above stays true.
well, OP now.
lots of MAJOR SCREW UPS.
damn it all to hell.
i can't wait for everything to end.
redcliff with JANE on sun,
darkknight[AGAIN] with SIAKHONG on sat.
OMG. digressing.
okok.
i feel so screwed up now.
even though i'm not i the middle,
i feel the tension and strain.
i know how it feels.
strange role reversal, with unexpected people.
and also,
it seems like
WE'RE HAVEING A FCUKING CRISIS WITH OP
WHEN WE'LL BE PRESENTING 9+ HOURS FROM NOW.
damn screwed.SCREW YOU MAN. SERIOUSLY.
WHAT SHIT ADVICE?!?!!? SERIOUSLY, GO FCUK THE WALL LAH.
WHO DO YOU FCUKING THINK YOU ARE?
SCREW YOU, SERIOUSLY, SCREW YOU.
you know who you are.
i can't be bothered.
i don't care.
that seriously didn't help elevate mt stress level,
or calm my nerves.
but it did take away some anger.
i can't believe i was on the verge of a breakdown.
then jane came along, and said four simple words.
'JY for your group(:'
shone some sunlight right there and then, i swear.
i don't care if it's dramatic by your standards.
it did help.
okay. now i shall try to encourage myself,
and go to sleep.
i shall refine my part tomorrow.
chin up, weiqi~
THE SHOW MUST GO ON.
you can do it!
it's almost over.