followed the same old, same old routine as i did
for the past, what, sixteen or so years.
dinner with my mummy's side on the eve,
visited my daddy's side on the first,
lunched with more of mummy's side on the second,
then visited more of daddy's side on the same day.
this year, how ever,
the third day included a visit to
nic's place and michelle's place.
then we mahjonged at my place with tricia(:
i finally know how to play 'tai'!
many thanks to nic for teaching us!!!!
wound up the game at eight plus, trica being the last to leave.
so much fun(:

life's been confusing now.
ever since my perspective's been changed,
lots of things seem different.
yet still, some people think i'm the same.
i've changed, goddammnit, can't you see?!?!?
or are you to caught up to even realise?
i'm too tired of playing games any more.
i'm mentally tired of mind games.
i don't know when it'll stop, cause it's killing me.
i'm a mess, seriously.
it's come to a point where i look forward to
sleeping every day,
only cause it provides an escape form reality.

my heart's bleedin'
bleedin' from your nonchalance.
why can't you see,
that i'm not the old me?
i don't want anything else,
just someone special to be there for me.
i'm just a girl,
under all that sass and wit,
looking for her so-called fairytale romance.
i can't really hate you for what you've done,
cause i think i love you.
it's a scary concept,
i'm afraid, but i think it's true.