I'M BACK(:
okayy. i know i should be chionging art now, like ting ting and constance
and everyone else.
but.
to confused to carry on.
literally.
not about art,
but my personal life.
i get something, only to lose another dear to me.
i know, you can't have your cake and eat it.
but, it's just simple things.
this charade is getting to complicated.
okay. on to the light hearted stuff.
WE'VE STEPPED DOWN(:
THREE STRIPES BABY, THREE STRIPES.
mwahahahahahahaha.
speech day's over, duh.
really a blast.
thanks to certain PDS people who shall remain unnamed
coughkhaireecoughhanbincough.
counter strike shall never be the same again.
Durex for shields!?!?!?
Viagra for ammo!?!?!?!?
god help us!
was laughing all the way with nga lam.
wilson didn't seem affected.
but i knew you were laughing waaaayyyyy in side.
don't lie.
it was seriously fun.
enjoyed the dance. fully.
was trying not to laugh hysterically through out the steps.
poor seanyew. dropped his rifle.
i know a few others did too.
BUT,
KUDOS TO PDS(:
you peeps did well.
grand finale totally rocked the house.
were laughing like mad when we went up the stairs.
zoned out during ongy's speech.
was watching the performance ms woon kindly recorded for
us,
WITH MY CAM(:
check my youtube acc. for the vids.
username: qiqifrankie
made fun of what the guest of honour said.
ridiculed his words.
saw a funny vid.
14 times 5 is
...
25!
(:
laughed ourselves half dead.
4, 8, 12, 16, 20...
21,21,23,24,25!
if you were there, you would probably understand.
if not, disregard these meaningless numbers.
the dance was really quite a surprise.
the peeps on stage were kinda expected.
but then...
da da da dum!
we appeared!
AND...
we DANCED!
me and michelle were giggling lots.
abit hard to dance in full SJAB unifrom.
but had fun.
messed up abit.
missed the second cue, where we danced the second time.
went abit haywire, but got back into sync.
went to dinner with zt, ks, cons, bev, shannon,
nikki, joyna, jiawen, see keih.
FUN(:
we all had steamboat.
ROCK THE BEAT!
sorry. it just sounded, well, right.
during POP, the juniors planned a party for us.
kinda expected, and suspected.
but it was really sweet of them.
HEARTS TO ALL MY JUNIORS(:
THANKS(:
your gesture was well appreciated.
on to more sombre things. zt's dad passed away.
really sad.
attended the wake.
really surprised mum let me go.
wanted us to go out after that.
but said nevermind after she saw
me looking kinda sad.
this really affected us deeply.
and even more deeply her.
i can't even say how much it hurts her.
but when i think of my own dad dying,
it brings tears to my eyes.
we've gone back to our normal routine now.
she seems back to herself.
but i know, it's not the same.
she's not like before.
she's matured beyind her age.
saddled with alot more burdens.
it's so unfair.
why her?
she's the nicest person i know.
i can see it in her eyes sometimes.
deep inside, she wants to cry.
yet, she knows she needs to be strong. for her family
as well as herself.
we're all there for you, zeng ting.
stay strong and keep on going.
you can do it.
every thing in my life seems different now.
Os are coming.
everyone's stiffened up.
i feel so scared.
so lost.
i don't know what i'm doing here.
i feel so unprepared.
i really don't know what i'm doing sometimes.
sometimes, while i'm doing classwork,
i'd just look up and say
"what am i doing?!?!"
i'm lost. please, somebody save me.
i really need HIM.
but i swore to forget him.
i even came up with a mantra.
I WILL FORGET HIM.
it's supposed to go like that.
FORGET. FORGETTING.FORGOTTEN.
but, it's going like that.
forget.forgetting.forgotten.REMEMBERED.
love again
repeat on a weekly basis.
i really don't want to get caught in this
vicious cycle.
i just wanna get out.
SAVE ME.