i feel so stupid, seriously.
i have something to say to you,
i know you're reading this somewhere.
FUCK OFF.
I HATE YOU.
I CAN'T BELIEVE I ACTUALLY
BELIEVED YOU IN THE
FIRST PLACE.
what's the meaning of this?
when you told me you liked me?
then you go get a girlfriend.
YOU LIED TO ME, SUCKER!
and i thought i could trust you.
i pity the girl
you call your girlfriend.
if you're this despicable guy's girl,
listen here.
I PITY YOU.
seriously, poor you.
break up with him ASAP.
you'll never know when he might
drop you for another person he claims
that he likes.
guess what.
YOU'RE NOTHING BUT AN
ARSEHOLE.
A BLOODY ARSEHOLE.
i don't care anymore.
i don't wanna CARE anymore.
ARSEHOLE.
wait. calling you that
is an insult to all other
more DECENT arseholes.
THIS DESPICABLE CAD
SHALL BE THERE FOR REFERED TO AS
IT.
once again,
i can't believe i actually FUCKING believed you.
guess what.
FUCK OFF, IT.
you know who you are - SUCKER.
I'M BACK(:
okayy. i know i should be chionging art now, like ting ting and constance
and everyone else.
but.
to confused to carry on.
literally.
not about art,
but my personal life.
i get something, only to lose another dear to me.
i know, you can't have your cake and eat it.
but, it's just simple things.
this charade is getting to complicated.
okay. on to the light hearted stuff.
WE'VE STEPPED DOWN(:
THREE STRIPES BABY, THREE STRIPES.
mwahahahahahahaha.
speech day's over, duh.
really a blast.
thanks to certain PDS people who shall remain unnamed
coughkhaireecoughhanbincough.
counter strike shall never be the same again.
Durex for shields!?!?!?
Viagra for ammo!?!?!?!?
god help us!
was laughing all the way with nga lam.
wilson didn't seem affected.
but i knew you were laughing waaaayyyyy in side.
don't lie.
it was seriously fun.
enjoyed the dance. fully.
was trying not to laugh hysterically through out the steps.
poor seanyew. dropped his rifle.
i know a few others did too.
BUT,
KUDOS TO PDS(:
you peeps did well.
grand finale totally rocked the house.
were laughing like mad when we went up the stairs.
zoned out during ongy's speech.
was watching the performance ms woon kindly recorded for
us,
WITH MY CAM(:
check my youtube acc. for the vids.
username: qiqifrankie
made fun of what the guest of honour said.
ridiculed his words.
saw a funny vid.
14 times 5 is
...
25!
(:
laughed ourselves half dead.
4, 8, 12, 16, 20...
21,21,23,24,25!
if you were there, you would probably understand.
if not, disregard these meaningless numbers.
the dance was really quite a surprise.
the peeps on stage were kinda expected.
but then...
da da da dum!
we appeared!
AND...
we DANCED!
me and michelle were giggling lots.
abit hard to dance in full SJAB unifrom.
but had fun.
messed up abit.
missed the second cue, where we danced the second time.
went abit haywire, but got back into sync.
went to dinner with zt, ks, cons, bev, shannon,
nikki, joyna, jiawen, see keih.
FUN(:
we all had steamboat.
ROCK THE BEAT!
sorry. it just sounded, well, right.
during POP, the juniors planned a party for us.
kinda expected, and suspected.
but it was really sweet of them.
HEARTS TO ALL MY JUNIORS(:
THANKS(:
your gesture was well appreciated.
on to more sombre things. zt's dad passed away.
really sad.
attended the wake.
really surprised mum let me go.
wanted us to go out after that.
but said nevermind after she saw
me looking kinda sad.
this really affected us deeply.
and even more deeply her.
i can't even say how much it hurts her.
but when i think of my own dad dying,
it brings tears to my eyes.
we've gone back to our normal routine now.
she seems back to herself.
but i know, it's not the same.
she's not like before.
she's matured beyind her age.
saddled with alot more burdens.
it's so unfair.
why her?
she's the nicest person i know.
i can see it in her eyes sometimes.
deep inside, she wants to cry.
yet, she knows she needs to be strong. for her family
as well as herself.
we're all there for you, zeng ting.
stay strong and keep on going.
you can do it.
every thing in my life seems different now.
Os are coming.
everyone's stiffened up.
i feel so scared.
so lost.
i don't know what i'm doing here.
i feel so unprepared.
i really don't know what i'm doing sometimes.
sometimes, while i'm doing classwork,
i'd just look up and say
"what am i doing?!?!"
i'm lost. please, somebody save me.
i really need HIM.
but i swore to forget him.
i even came up with a mantra.
I WILL FORGET HIM.
it's supposed to go like that.
FORGET. FORGETTING.FORGOTTEN.
but, it's going like that.
forget.forgetting.forgotten.REMEMBERED.
love again
repeat on a weekly basis.
i really don't want to get caught in this
vicious cycle.
i just wanna get out.
SAVE ME.
yawns. another late night for this year. thanks to the homework given
hint hint teachers. i barely sleep 6 hours each day. i want my eight hours of miracle sleep~ okay, enough bellyaching. okay, i want to change my
blogskin, but i doubt i will even bother to go and find a nice skin.
in other words, i'm just plain lazy. kinda bored, while in the midst of chionging homework. but after this, i seriously doubt that i'll be posting alot, unless a miracle happens. trying to complete
ss now. bloody drag. i totally HATE
SBQ. bloody hard to do. there's some inference crap, then some shit about evidence.
geez. if this goes on,
i'll over analyse my life as a result of to much crap, as such.
but then, i think i already am.
over analysing, that is. been thinking too much recently. every action always has a hidden agenda or some meaning behind it. damn, i'm driving myself crazy. thinking abit too much about things recently. you wanna know what things??? NAH, I'M NOT TELLING~ =x
but then, there are always good things to look to. recently shopped at bugis. bought a new school bag, pencil box and bottle. been salivating over these junk for well, weeks, and finally bought it.
i've been deprived of coffee. my parents locked my stash of Starbucks coffees and now
i'm suffering just trying to stay awake. and it's only 10.47pm. i seriously DESIRE COFFEE!
i shall once again emphasise. I HATE SS!!!! there. yet, i still like some chapters in SS. i.e Venice, a case study. the good governance thingy. yeah.
WHAT THE HELL.
i'm uttering rubbish.
i feel like deleting the previous paragraphs
but yet, i desist. they shall remain there
for the entertainment of me myself and the general public.
OKAY.
i shall be more sensible from this point on.
NAH. it's fun being silly now, cos i'm
HALF-DEAD
no thanks to
HOMEWORK.
geez. my eyes are itching, but i shall not remove these things known as contacts for then on, i shall not be capable of normal sight, and my glasses will not provide any comfort nor relief, as it is in a far away location.
translation: i'm too lazy to remove my contacts, and to lazy to get my specs which are in my bedroom. geez. i'm getting old.
okay, gotten rid of SS and moving to a slightly better subject TRANSFORMATION!.
ONE LAST QUESTION LEFT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
GAH! i'm stumped at the last part. geez. i shall seek professional advice. TOMORROW.
GOODNIGHT PEOPLE.
let's hope i'm normal again tomorrow.
(: