have not posted for a long time.. sad... chose to post now cos i don't want to fall asleep while writing my literature essay. ohmyword... the bed looks so freaking tempting... was in my air-con room doing my essay, but found myself drifting off, then i moved outside, and switched on the fan. but, apparently the fan , combined with the wind from the outside has the same effect. feeling so sleepy... CANNOT SLEEP!!!! must finish lit essay or mr yeo will be after me...

AAAAAHHHHH so sians...

today we went to a nursing home. All Saints Home if i'm not wrong... felt so emotional, seeing all these bedridden or wheelchair bound people. cried once, but didn't let the old folks see. christine, joyna and sharifah tried to cheer me up... cheers to you people...=) talked to some of the old people there. flumbled with my hokkien, but constance came to the rescue with her own fluent hokkien. then we went to the third floor. so funny. we walk and walk saying hi to the old folks there and in the end we walked one whole round. so, me, syiarah ,sharifah and fazlee helped with giving out the food. so fun, but got scalded(kinda) a few times. promised myself i wouldn't cry there, but then in the end i cried... zeng ting was the first to cry, the sometime later sharifah had tears in her eyes. knew that there were more people who cried, but not sure. we were in this ward, and christian was talking to a lady who spoke english. then this (KPO) lady from across the ward, who was visiting, probably, asked christian in chinese if he understood what the lady was talking about. i think she thought christian didn't know who to speak english, or something like that, and he was like, "anh" and "orh"... felt like laughing, but controlled myself.

feel so tired... energyless... wanna sleep. screw mr yeo. i'll do his essay tomorrow. my wrist hurts and so does my shoulder. goodnight. konbawa. wan an. don't bug me...=)

my life is officially over... i totally screwed up . I went off tune slightly in the first line of the chorus... wahahahaha... i'm so dead. but like my chances were so high in the first place. there are 31 sec 3s, and in total 72 people, all vying for the six places in the finals. so that leavs about a chance of about 3 places for the sec 3s and there are 31 people. now, meiyan and the rest have a five percent advantage while i have a 31 percent disadvantage plus another ten for going slightly off, and also the 41 percent disadvantage due to the sec 2s and 1s. i also have another like what, 18 percent disadvantage because of the sheer talent that the others have. which, divide by 3, i only have a 0.333... percent chance. JOY...

PISSED OFF... How would you feel if somebody says something bad about you. I noe you hate me. I hate you too, by the way. I thought you were my friend. I treated you like a human being. just because you don't like me, doesn't mean everybody likes you. you're even more unpopular than me. at least I have more real friends than you. you never know what's under the facade of the people you call friends. you think you sing so well. you may have that little amount of talent, but you can't pull it off. you don't have the discipline that I have. you can't control your emotions. you cry at the slightest things. you make friends with the bitchiest know.(not all friends of this miss are what I implied). you copy people when you think that they are cool. you stick to people like a leech. you irritate the hell out off people. you're a bloody hypocrite. you like embarrassing people, but you embarrass yourself while doing it. just because you friend doesn't want to be friends with you doesn't mean i stole her. finally, once and for all; PISS OFF.

and, NOBODY LIKES YOU.=) go curl up and cry, crybaby.

ladeda... i went to make my ic today... woots , so excited... can get it next month... poor prople born in october, november and december... next yr than can get ic... dorts... saw azeemah at the ICA while making ic... tot she was going on friday, as i originally planned. =)

ytd during cca time was the first time i held a first aid lesson.. did acceptably... at least the were kinda listening... nothing really exciting happened today... gonna sign off lerr... tootles...=)

bloody bugger... treated them like a human beings and they gives me this kind of crap. i admit i don't like people like that ONE, but damn it, i don't dish crap about them on my BLOG... WHERE EVERYBODY CAN READ AND JUDGE YOU! and on my own tagboard for goodness sake. have some sense, wait, i forgot you don't HAVE SENSE! the least you could do is to omit the name for goodness sake. i may not like him or her, but damn it, i don't go publicising it all on my blog. even if i do, i OMIT the name. or is the word OMIT of hard for that one to understand. well that moronic illiterate, means to COVER UP that persons name, or REPLACE it... for god's sake you don't even know how to spell right!! next time go learn your spelling before crapping someone off...well, given your morals, you wouldn't even do it if you knew what it means. wait, i forgot, you DON'T HAVE MORALS!!!!! do you know how freaking HURT is the person when you crap them online. of course you don't know, cos you have no feelings, you cold-hearted bitch/bustard. my deepest apopogies to all female dogs or others who feel disgusted in being compared to the one. either that or you've never been crapped online. i could do that to you, but i would rather preserve my dignity than do that. in the first place, do you even think before you do anything? all you can use are those few words i wouldn't bother repeating... is your vocab so limited that you need to us ethose few words? asshole... must be sad to know that you can't spell or scold... my deepest sympathy to your parents for having such a child...must be their greatest misfortune. anyway,piss off... i don't even want to know where you live, cos if i do, your house door would be a nice shade of red now. there's only one thing i have left to say. get the F**KING HELL OFF MY BLOG, and think before you slag anyone else. wait. i forgot. YOU DON'T THINK... you're not intellectually clever enought to even think. PISS OFF STAY OFF...

now that felt better.

shopping shopping SHOPPING!!!!! god, i think i should lay off the sugar...today after school, me and jane went to TM for Pizza Hut, cos of the Students special... so funny. just love it at Pizza Huts, plus TM's PH was just renovated, and the amosphere is rather nice. reminds me of a high class jazz pub. love it there cos i can nick all the grated cheese and nobody cares.=) we both shared the chicken ole baked rice and chick 'n shooms pasta with alfredo's sauce. then there was the "cream" of mushroom soup. supposed to be creamy right, but it became like WATERY.... diaos... heard it was due to the kitchen getting jammed. ah well... but was rather nice. spent only like 14++ dollars. cos got discount.=) best thing bout being a student. the DISCOUNTS...

then we went to CS and up to the second floor toilets. and guess what? i became so freaking bored while jane was doing her hair that i started taking pics with my digi cam... looked rather nice with the light, actually... besides, the toilets ARE nice there...

















diaos... crazy right?

then we went to aries where i bought myself a hair clasp in black and two giant clips, one silver with black and white rhinestones, another jet black. following that , we went to montip and jane bought a clip, i bought a retro black and white big shell clip and a chain for my wallet. it's a dolphin... nice and shiny=)... and that concludes my day at TM with jane...

did i mention i'm joining PRCS Idol?=)

YAY... I'm back on... woots..woots... hahas... past few days my internet got problem... sians... had to endure like 2 weeks of no internet... sians... hahas... 3 days past my birthday ready... not much presents. feel like crying... he at least wished me happy bday last year... this yr not even a mention. haiis... nearly kena "shower" with flour and eggs... but got 15 bashed frm myy darling number 1 part1 nadhirah=) still pain... sad.. hahass...

ytd (15 july) went to watch POC Dead Man's Chest. so funny. laugh untill my sides split...=) Johnny Depp and Orlando Bloom are SO freaking cartoon... Keira Knightley was like so pretty in her wedding dress, but well she didn't get married in the end... *mysterious smile* and there was the sword fights... loved that to bits. specially the part where she turned the two swords backwards to stab Davy Jones's lackies.... then there was Captian Jack Sparrow=) so cartoon.... his famous word "bugger...", but really in the end he APPEARS to have died... keyword APPEARS. the ending was left hanging, and that guy Barbosa from POC Curse of the Black Pearl came back, although he's supposed to be erm...let me see...DEAD?!?!?!?! whoa... but still, can't wait to watch the third installation of POC...

friday i was totally pissed out... *SOMEBODY* seriously fucked me up by testing my thinning patience and whatever endurance i have. i really couldn't stand it cos later during CCA that PERSON showed me uber attitude, even worse then some people i know *ahemyeethengkailianahem* and i snapped. i didn't see it coming. i almost never crying school during my cca. that's where i act strong, where i 'geng'. only during then i show my "missy bitch" side. the 'i'm in control' side. i really cried. i escaped the class room and the cried at the landing near the hall. i thought i was okay but when i went into the class and sat at the back, i started crying again. dunno why, but i just started crying again. but i feel much better now. thank god..=) tons of hugs and kissed to amirah, azeemah, suhailah,shameem and naeem for helping me tru this. =)

BTW... i was at the S'pore Idol road show at J8 top of the 8=) wait. let me rephrase it.AHEM... I SHOOK HANDS WITH ALL THE IDOLS AND GOT THEIR SIGNATURES AND A LANDYARD THAT THEY THREW INTO THE CROWD.=) there.. that was nice. felt so freaking high... and i got pics to prove it=)

i currently feel like i'm on drugs. one moment high another moody... ah well, at least it's not PMS... haiis... back to school tomorrow... woots. woots...*sarcastic tone* ta

i hate friendster... gwad... i spent close to three hours just to format my profile... on the other hand, i managed to add a few more photos. yeah me...=) got my beloved philippe starck watch back... my right wrist felt so empty for the whole week in school cos my watch ran out of battery somewere in the middle of my taiwan trip, but i didn't bother to go fix it.

went back to Park View today... woots to the carnival there. kinda boring after a while, but jane came over and we went to macs in elias mall to munch on fries. saw my beloved mrs yap again... took a pic with her. didn't see ms ang though... wonder where she went... didn't really see anyone there... thought i saw ian, my classmate in p3B, but...erm...i THOUGHT...hahas... still remember my teachers from p1 to sec 2...woots... p1A; mrs yap, p2F;Ms Ng, P3B;mr roland quek, p4C; ms ellia, p5F and 6F; ms ang, sec1.5; mrs neo, sec2.5; mr anthony quek...=) woots to my good memory...=)

can't believe i've been blogging for close to three months... woots... hahas... speaking of that... i finally can say, I'VE FINISHED MY STORY.....yay... no more guilt traps... WOOTS..... haha.... doing cip with michelle yap at CHG soon...on monday in fact...sianx....nothing to write about lah...